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So i've been watching the summer i turned pretty. i heard season three was coming up after having completley forgotten that the show existed and rewatched the first two seasons in like a few days. and NOTE: i haven't finished season three yet (as the wholee thing is not out) and i think ive seen about the first 3 or 4 episodes of season 3. i kinda want to save the rest for a big binge (hate that streaming services are doing this now i thought this was the whole point of not having cable (but also ig its not bad to pace urself ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)) ANYWAY kinda hate and love this show simultaneously or a better way of putting it is that i hate it but am invested and cannot stop for the life of me. I mean i don't hate it hate it; i liked the beachy town vibe that it had going for it for the first two seasons and i rly like hte cast (for the most part) also cams nice but there were still a lot of things that kept bugging me. (from this point on i will make points marking each of them with brackets because i am bad at transitions) [KINDA HATE BELLY BUT ALSO SHES LOWKEY VERY #RELATABLE] I read the first book before this (don't rly feel like reading the other two tho) and i kinda can't stand belly. most of her thoughts felt very negative and it was kinda of insufferable to read through. whole time shes complaining about how the boys leave her out, or how her mom sucks, or how everybody likes taylor more. It was just sorta difficult to like her when that was her thought process the whole time. and honestly it was kind of scary cuz it felt like someone held up a mirror right in front of me. like lowkey very real of her to only be thinking about boys, her appearance, and all the negative aspects of her relationships with every individual in her life but nevertheless it didn't make for a likeable protagonist. ALSO it felt very contradictory whenever she made some sort of positive statement about her life. like i understood why she likes susannah but it felt hypocritical to be like "ya cousins so lit" when shes just been going on and on and on about the boys treat her horribly and how also she does is yearn for conrad year-round. sounds like cousins is the source of all her misery. also i feel like she ruins every social event (idk what to call that, hangout? function?). like literally why at every single party does she manage to make a scene or be caught in the middle of the chaos. first ep, season one at the beach thing literally eats shit and then gets a black eye, during 4th of july drinks too much and ruins susannah's cake, during the season 2 house party again gets super drunk, realizes everything sucks, is sobbing, calls her mom (which i feel like that whole party was a terrible idea or at teh very least i couldn't figure out how the show was trying to frame that party. first its a good thing since its just what susannah would've wanted next its bad cuz all the drunk teenagers are wrecking the place??). also at the beginning of season two she embarrases herself in front of that guy bc she thought liked her and then she ends up yelling at steven to drive her home (while i get that youve been having a tough time lately, why are you getting mad at otehr ppl when they don't wanna leave yet?) Idk theres just so little to like about her. u can tell she cares about everyone around her and will obv try to put some effort in her relationship with others like with helpign conrad study but she just feels so self centered sometimes and causes soooo much unecessary drama. like she thinks shes these boys' saviours or something and i think shes majorly overestimating hwo important she is to them. literally in the book when she and conrad are having that argument shes like "ik he likes me" and shes trying to get him to admit it and accusing him of leading her on but denying her real romantic affection bc its alllll about her and his whole "brooding James Dean routine" is purposeful just to keep her "on [the] hook" when turns out HIS MOM HAS FREAKING CANCER YOU DINGBAT. LIKE BRUH UR JUST BEING ANNOYING SHUT UP. and the book/show/story is def aware that she is selfish and self-centered cuz conrad calls her out on her bs but i just odnt think the problem gets resolved. cuz there still pushing this 'bc susannahs gone,belly has to be the one to keep the boys in check bc they need her' narrative. when its like HELLOOOO HOW ABOUT LEAVE THIS POOR FAMILY ALONE CHALLENGE!!!!she is so that girl that when her boyfriend gets into a fight she pulls up in front of to him like those dudes who hold up red shit in front of bulls and is all like "just listen to me babe. this isn't you babe. just foucs on me, your GIRLFRIEND" trying to calm them down. OH WAIT. THAT LITERALLY IS HER. ANYONE RECALLE SEASON ONE EP ONE? HMMMM? ANYONE? ANYOO-- *cough cough* mkay anyway [this show is too messy and doesn't know how to put stuff to rest] I feel like they had no idea what they were doing in season two. i thought it started off strong with the whole selling of the house. twas a good way of getting all the characters together and having them team up behind a shared cause after all the shit that just went down (aka Susannah dying, jere being mad at belly and conrad dating, and their breakup). i was like ok, epic, lit they're gonna save the house and realize 'guys we don't need to fight cuz thats not what sussanah would've wantd and we all love each other and are still friends; freak the drama.' but NOOOOOO belly's still way too invested in trying to juggle both these men when its like OH MY PRINCESS CELESTIA DID WE NOT LEAVE THIS IN THE LAST SEASON. belly u legit spent ur whole life thirsting after one boy (con) just to hook up with his brother (jere) and then GO BACK to the other one (con) and break up with him. AND YOU JSUT APOLOGIZED TO THE OTHER OTHER ONE (jere) BC U (SUPPOSEDLY) REALIZED HOW MUCH THAT HURT HIM. and now ur asking him why he opted out of kissing you during truth or dare?? and u finally make peace with the idea of not ending up with conrad (sure buddy) SO UR FULLY JUST GONNA MARRY HIM (jere) NEXT SEASON??? LIKE WE'VE PLAYED THESE GAMES BEFORE. IN FACT U JUST WENT BACK TO BACK PLAYING EXACT SAME ROUND. LIKE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD GET SOME CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT, PROGRESS TO THE NEXT LEVEL, AND REALIZE THIS BEHAVIOR IS EMBARASSING. also JERE STFU. he was pissing me off at the end of season two when he kissed belly. cuz like bro u literally know what its like; belly led u on just to hook up with ur big bro and u were pissed about it for months and oh now ur gonna hook up with belly and have the audacity to act shocked when conrad mad at you for doing the exact same shit you he did to you to him-- IDEK ANYMORE. i swear to celestia its literally imbedded in my head the way he saw conrad after he just kissed belly and was like "c'mon conrad" WDYMMMMM CMON? U HYPOCRITE. like the first time it happened (belly going for conrad after jere) i was cool with it. i mean i wasn't "cool with it" but it was the most i was able to tolerate without it going past normal immature teens with crazy, intense, emotions but point is this show just doesn't know how to end drama likeeeee-- reheated nachos. anyway another example of this: taylor and steven. like if yall were a brand of cereal it'd be called "cheaters" CUZ WDYM AFTER STEVEN CHEATING ON SHAYLA (kind of, i get they weren't exclusive just yet but whatever) AND TAYLOR CHEATING ON MILO THREE YEARS LATER THEY HAVE TWO COMPELTLEY DIFFERENT PARTNERS AND TICKLING EACH OTHERS TOES IN THEIR FREE TIME. like i don't get. idk if this is controversial but i actually do like the chemistry they have with each other. like i like the witty banter they have with one another and during their first scene together in season three i was indeed giggling and kicking my feet up in the air. but o my golly darn gosh the way that was all ruined the moment i found out they were dating other people. TWO WORDS: REHEATED NACHOS. honestly justice for milo. framing milo as this cringe sound cloud rapper thats just getting in the way of taylor and stevens relationship and also acting like steven was in the right the whole time (or at least not holding him accountable in anyway for going for SOMEONE ELSES GF). *face palm* cuz what? i just dont get it. it seemed like a rly good ending for them at the end of last season. FINALLY no more cheating/dating other ppl and they've finally realized that they like each other and can date? why more cheating drama? ig this is all under the assumption of that they're gonna be end game but its also kind of obvious that theyre trying to pair steven up with the coworker girl. mark my words. steven and coworker girl (i forgot her name whoops) are gonna hook up, taylor is ognna get jelous and at the end be like nooo waiitt stop im in love with you. i just dont get it. it feels like they're creating more drama for the sake of more drama. and im not saying the show can't explore problems in their relationship after having already gotten together but this just feelsl ike a major step backward. i thought the plotline of steven trying to help taylor and her mom wasn't bad (i mean feels unrelated to the rest of the show but) i thought it was cool of them to explore taylors struggle with sort of handling with all of her shit on her own and not being able to accept help from others and what that mean for her relationship with steven. idk i liked how it fleshed out her character and allowed the show to explore different types of conflicts within romantic relationships without just throwing another hottie into the mix. [laurel gay] idk what else to say. like she is. (btw this isn't meant to take away from how meaningful her friendship with Susannah was cuz i honestly loved how the show showcased such a beautiful female friendship like theirs i just mean to also make the point that) laurel was deffff in love with her. like what do you mean u divorce ur husband and hes all like "you know there was always three of us in this relationship" and ur (basically) gf is talking about how ur daughter is "our (OUR) girl". she is sooo pearl coded. i don't really having anything else to say other than im officially submitting my request for a subway x tsitp laurel and Susannah animatic. for any animators reading i give you all the rights to use this idea NEOW. like have laurel walking around in public and then she keeps seeing stuff/other ppl that remind her of Susannah. like on the "i saw her green hair. beauty mark next to her mouth. out on the subway i nearly had a breakdown" have her looking at Susannah and turns out its jsut some other blond woman. SHES GOT SHES GOT AWAYYYY (unrelated but 10/10 song). ok im getting tired now and u can prolly tell so i'll put all the other points im to tired to elaborate on right here:

• aunt julia (selling the house) while i didn't hate her, it was unecessary. i feel like the dad should've been the one selling it so we could learn more about him since he seems to be a more significant figure in the boys' life
• on my og watch i hated conrad and loved jere and now its the opposite; feel like conrad is a lot more responsible and was one of the only characters to mature after his teen yrs (thank u therapy)
• rly liked how bellys relationship between her mom and susannah were presentend in comparison to one another: susanah loves (and spoils) belly but doesn't understand her like laurel does no matter how much they kinda hate each other (rly appreceiate the purple and debutante dress scenes and and susanah gifting belly the room but laurel knowing she won't be able to sleep alone)
• i love cam
• and justice for all the victims whose lives have been tainted by the evil presence of the conklin siblings: shayla, milo, nicole, and cam (thoughts and prayers truly)

as you can tell im super excited for the rest of season 3 to be out #thisistheonlythingimcapableofthinkingabout atthemomentthisisntevenachoiceplshelpme. k bye! :D